Sometimes I think I miss you. But then again, I'm wrong
I'm fine without you. Sure, it hurts that it feels like i've lost a friend but the thing is, it wasn't my fault at all. You are the one to stop talking. You are the one who left and i'm sick of being the one who always tries and find my way back next to you cos it's like you'd always just walk faster. The distance between us is stretching too far, it's almost impossible to keep up with you now. Who knows what's on your mind. Who knows what you're thinking about nowadays. seriously, I dont really care no more. We've drifted and I gotta learn to accept the fact.
I miss your warm hugs at times, and hearing your voice all the time, or your sms messages and just the sound of your laughter. But hey, if they're already taken by someone else, i'll accept it. We all gotta let go and move on but it seems really really hard sometimes. Like right now. I know I shouldnt miss you, but it annoys me that I do. Why should i? You don't care about me. Well it doesnt seem like it. so why should i? There are more people out there, who might be better than you, and will make a better friend than you. But truthfully, I don't think there will be anyone that will be able to replace you in my memories. The times we've spent together was quite a lot... and they were indeed enjoyable, but as time goes on things change. we change. and somewhere along the line we came apart.
I remember I wrote a poem to a friend of mine tellin her how much i missed our friendship, and it made her cry. The poem did its work there. But I don't think a poem would ever bring you back to me. You're different. And I bet you don't even miss me. Do i ever come up in your mind? LOok, when we see each other, you don't even say hi to me. It's like we're two different people, from two entirely differnet worlds. Strangers.
I sometimes wish that we could somehow go back in time and relive all the funny moments together and like try our best to prevent our split, but why think of the impossible? it's impossible. It seems like youre happy now. Yeah.
So I hope all will go well for you. Whatever youre up to these days. and if maybe one day you read this and decide that you miss me and the friendship we had, then we can start over again.
"A ring is round and never ends that's how long i'll be your friend" LOL whatever. it doesnt always work man.
It's funny how after all this time, I still love you. When i'm bored, I re-read our msgs, chat logs and emails, and i laugh. They're hilarious i swear. LOL Guess it goes to show how much I really do miss you huh? But i'll keep denying it to myself and maybe one day i really WON'T miss you.
Labels: friends, missing you, rage
