i hate how i always read our chat logs, emails, sms over and over again trying to look for some friggen hidden message in them. A double meaning. whatever
I HATE HOW DAMN FUNNY THEY ARE
I HATE HOW DAMN MUCH I ENJOY THEM
I HATE HOW I DREAMT ABOUT YOU LAST NIGHT
I hate how i find myself thinking about you
i hate how everything reminds me of you
i hate your voice
i hate it how i can't look up when you walk in the door
i hate how i hafta pretend i don't notice you
i hate it how i find myself looking for you in the room
i hate how i always notice you
i hate how i always wonder if your coming or not
i hate how you always gimme those one worded answers and i expect more
i hate how your so funny and make me laugh
i hate how you talk to other people so easily
i hate how perfectly flawless you seem.
i hate the fact i'm missing you, when I know i shouldnt
I hate the face that i'm thinking about you while you aren't
I hate it when you call me, and act like nothings wrong
I hate it when you talk to me about the shallowest things
As a child there were them times I didn't get it but you kept me in line I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes On Sunday mornings and I missed you But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things separation brings You never let me know it, you never let it show Because you loved me and obviously there's so much more left to say If you were with me today face to face
Never knew I could hurt like this and everyday life goes on I wish I could talk to you for a while Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place Still I'd give em the world to see your face And be right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
It;s such a nice song but so depressing LOL, but it sounds so damn good :) really helps calm me down and put me to sleep.
First day of the real holidays! -takes a deep breath- The air smells so free and pretty =] haha thanks rosa for the comment on my last blog. You sound so mature xD LOL like the REAL FIFTEEN year old you are. LOL i love you :) Plans for this holidays: - go out with the peoples. - go over to someones house - study for jap speaking test with larri - go over to Jamie's house to study -go play tennis/squash anyone? -Study -STUDY -read some good books -teevee -computer -watch some movies - watch some dramas -go to the library -shopping:)
ehh.. I think that;s it. LOL msg me if you guys wanna do anything :D There's really not much to say atm, so i'll come back to you guys latahz :] I miss you already and it's only the first day! i'm so gonna die without seeing yous! LOL come o ver my place! :)
MMmm I'm in a very bored and annoyed mood today. :s LOL so i'll probably write something not so happy? LOL Sometimes I think I miss you. But then again, I'm wrong I'm fine without you. Sure, it hurts that it feels like i've lost a friend but the thing is, it wasn't my fault at all. You are the one to stop talking. You are the one who left and i'm sick of being the one who always tries and find my way back next to you cos it's like you'd always just walk faster. The distance between us is stretching too far, it's almost impossible to keep up with you now. Who knows what's on your mind. Who knows what you're thinking about nowadays. seriously, I dont really care no more. We've drifted and I gotta learn to accept the fact. I miss your warm hugs at times, and hearing your voice all the time, or your sms messages and just the sound of your laughter. But hey, if they're already taken by someone else, i'll accept it. We all gotta let go and move on but it seems really really hard sometimes. Like right now. I know I shouldnt miss you, but it annoys me that I do. Why should i? You don't care about me. Well it doesnt seem like it. so why should i? There are more people out there, who might be better than you, and will make a better friend than you. But truthfully, I don't think there will be anyone that will be able to replace you in my memories. The times we've spent together was quite a lot... and they were indeed enjoyable, but as time goes on things change. we change. and somewhere along the line we came apart. I remember I wrote a poem to a friend of mine tellin her how much i missed our friendship, and it made her cry. The poem did its work there. But I don't think a poem would ever bring you back to me. You're different. And I bet you don't even miss me. Do i ever come up in your mind? LOok, when we see each other, you don't even say hi to me. It's like we're two different people, from two entirely differnet worlds. Strangers. I sometimes wish that we could somehow go back in time and relive all the funny moments together and like try our best to prevent our split, but why think of the impossible? it's impossible. It seems like youre happy now. Yeah. So I hope all will go well for you. Whatever youre up to these days. and if maybe one day you read this and decide that you miss me and the friendship we had, then we can start over again. "A ring is round and never ends that's how long i'll be your friend" LOL whatever. it doesnt always work man. It's funny how after all this time, I still love you. When i'm bored, I re-read our msgs, chat logs and emails, and i laugh. They're hilarious i swear. LOL Guess it goes to show how much I really do miss you huh? But i'll keep denying it to myself and maybe one day i really WON'T miss you.
pains and what nots It's funny how much a guy can change for a girl. It's funny how they can change from a perfectly nice guy to an ass for the sake of one girl. It's weird how when you're away from her, you're an entire different person. Someone who we all like more, but when the topic of her comes out, you become overprotective. You'd strike like a blind cat.
Have you ever realised how many girls you'd hurt because of her. How you left so many friends to be with her? Boy you got your priorities wrong. Girl over friend? nah uh man. That ain't the way. Sometimes I feel like I really need to slap some sense into yah. But hey, who am I to boss you around? You are you. YOU live your life. There's nothing I can do to change you except maybe talk to you. But the thing is, am i WILLING to talk to you, when you're such an ass? sorry mate. No can do. so it's either her or your friends take it or leave it.
Remember the times we had? all the GREAT FUN times we had that seem oh-so-distant now? The time when she never came up in your head, the time when we could talk about anything in the world together and laugh along to it? Along comes her, and now we never talk. You're never there. NEVER. I used to miss you. that's right. i USED to. and everytime i talked to you, it'd be a hasty reply of "sorry". Sorry is only meant to be used when you mean it pal. Don't say it if you dont mean it. As time went on, i stopped thinking of our moments together. Well, not really, they still pop up sometimes =\ but oh wells, the point i'm making, is that I stopped missing you. I stopped wanting to talk to you. If you didn't wanna talk to me, that wasn't my problem. Cos to put it bluntly, I don't care. Why should I care about you when you dont? pointless.
Then came the day when you compforted me at my hour of need. It's been a million years since we last talked, or so it seems, and then you walk back into my vision. You lent me your shoulder as i cried, and I realised how much I missed you. You hugged me and told me to cheer up. and i realised how much i missed talking to you and hearing your voice. You a dmit to me that we havent talkked in a while, and it was YOUR fault. you apologize only, the next day your'e back to her.
We're back to where we started. Dude, what's the point in this friendship? One where you just keep walking in and out. Cutting and healing me. Givin me hope and then burning them
This kind of friendship, i don't need. I'm better off without it. And even if it's not for me, stop hurting my friends. I know you can do better than that.
ehh so bored. Havent blogged in like.. 12 days. LOL ohwells I guess i havent been in the mood. Lotsa family problemos going on. Can't wait til holidays to start studying. and gotta go out or i'll go nuts LOl
I can't stand summer. So hot and sticky and everyone stinks. LOL (im kidding! relax!) The flies are gonna be backk.. BACK i say. I should probably stop procrastinating. Too much time wasted LOL. I'll blog when i'm in abetter mood. til then, ;) tatass
Whenever I have a bad day, it always seems like you're there. I wanna thank you for being there. Thanks for being such a good listener and thanks for showing me that you really care. It means a lot to have a shoulder to lean on, a chest to cry on. I love you guys.
When I look in your eyes, I don't want to look away. I smile at every word that comes out of your mouth, and when you smile back, I melt. Sometimes i wonder what I would do without you, not understanding how i got by before.
People who belong together stay together, despite major setbacks and disagreements. They may deal in fault and blame temporarily, but ultimately they work things out. Love conquers all; in sickness and in health。
I'll be there for you whatever happens and I know you'll be with me also. I feel your presence with me everywhere I am. To me, you're like my guardian angel except I'm not supposed to fall in love with them, but too bad. I already have.
Love is when that person reaches for your hand but touches your heart. It's when, if the person wasn't with you, you'd fall apart. Just seeing the person should be a treat. You cant get them out of your mind. When your around them, you feel safe. You can tell them anything, and you tell them everything. You always want to be with them. When you hear their voice, it soothes you inside. You don't have to be "cool" around them; you can just be yourself! You miss them even if you just talked to them five minutes ago. You dream about them and can't sleep at night 'cause you're thinking of them. You talk about them and your friends have to tell you to shut up. If you hug or kiss them, you definitely feel something. You can't get enough of that person.. Love isn't just a word.
I love you, and I probably always will, but we go days without having a meaningful conversation and I used to miss you so much when that would happen but it never seemed like you missed me. I guess because of it, I stopped missing you.
But days goes on and there are still times where I think of you and at those moments I wonder if you're thinking of me too. Surely you haven't forgotten all those great moments that we've spent together. Or have you? Its better for me not to hope because I don't want to get hurt yet again.
"I don't know if it's the way he says my name, or the way he catches me staring at him and pretends to not to notice the smile on my face. Maybe it's just the way he makes me feel about myself, even when I'm down. But when I look at him, I see all those memories of us. And i wonder if maybe he's still seeing them too. " I'm so scared that one day I would really need to say this to you. I don't think that I'd last. But I'd be strong and put up a proud face and show you that I can be strong and still be the same girl that you had fell for.
You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairytales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete utter faith. Santa Claus, the tooth fairy, prince charming; they were so close you could taste them but eventually you grow up. One day you open your eyes and the fairytale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is it's harf to let go of that fairytale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.
And lastly to sum up my day/blog, I'd like to end with a quote that I really found to be very helpful and wise. Do what it says or else :)
The most selfish one-letter word - "I" Avoid it. The most satisfying two-letter word - "We" Use it. The most poisonous three-letter word - "Ego" Kill it. The most used four-letter word - "Love" Value it. The most pleasing five-letter word - "Smile" Keep it. The fastest spreading six-letter word - "Rumor "Ignore it. The hardest working seven-letter word - "Success" Achieve it. The most enviable eight-letter word - "Jealousy" Distance it. The most powerful nine-letter word - "Knowledge" Acquire it. The most essential ten-letter word - "Confidence" Trust it.
I love you stupid. You make me laugh. You make me cry. You help me learn the other side of me I never knew. I miss you when youre gone and I can't get enough of you when you're with me. You bring the sunshine into my life. You brighten up my days. I love you.
Btw, hey nick :) Guess what? Something of the above was for you xD Thank you for the shout. It really made my day =]
i miss winter already. It feels so warm and it's only spring. dammit ==" imagine all those flies coming back. ugh! ewwww Yes i noe this is like the 2nd blog for today BUT i can't help being bored. I finally understand why you guys blog. LOL and hey.. i gotta admit it's pretty fun. I'll write my heart out. :D haha
umm there was something i wanted to write... but i can't remember now -__- ok ok, if i remember, i'll post another blog again, making it the 3rd one of the day. LOL
n2s: Maths homework, Chinese assignment, read shakespeare play.
I was recovering from my previous sickness until Nina contaminated me with her awesomeness which made me sick again. My throat feels rough and when i speak i sound husky. (very sexy ;] ) LOL and my nose wont stop running. Argh. And it's blocked at the same time so like i can't even sniff it up if i was that desperate. LOL!
Yesh, I'm on blog again cos im bored ok? Give a girl some space. xD Yay strike ish on tomorrow. sweet ;D I heard not many people are going to school. I don't wanna go either... but my mum will kick me if i don't. *sighs* I guess I hafta go. zzz. Not in the mood to write lovey dovey stuff today. haha. man I got in trouble for holding a bottle in geo class today. dude. it's just a bottle, and i got fully told off. Whatta noob teacher T_T" and then i was looking through my GEOGRAPHY book during GEOGRAPHY CLASS and i got told off. Dude, Carny hates me man. Damn noob =="
anyways on nicer topics; ..can't think of any. LOL I think i'll stay home and do my chinese assignment tomorrow during strike so I can get it over and done with ;D I'm such a good kid.
I should go sleep soon, my eyes hurt. I live my life too much in front of a computer ><" Damn school, I don't wanna go tomoro. OMGG I got Carny tomorrow! ok, I'm not going. :D problemo solved. LOL sweet. I'm so bored. Maybe i'll go do some study for once... pfft. never! ok ok i got it. HOT SHOT time. 8D my time with my Wu chun. :D ta ta. i sound like i'm talkin to myself. how sad :( <3>
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