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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

i'm boreeeeeeed and i dun wannna study so i decided to do a quiz! LOL yay
Come and learn more about me fellow people. :D

1) What is your name?
my name is janNICE (emphasise on nice!) get it RIGHT!

2) Do you find it annoying when surveys ask for your name?
no, it makes me feel popular. like a celebrity! although celebs dun needa say their name cos like.. ppl noe them already.. LOL

3) What do you plan to buy in the future?
a house, a WHITE GRAND PIANO, and stuff? LOL

4) How many pairs of Converse do you own?
does fake ones count? :D

5) There is a mummy standing behind you. What do you do?
nothing. i love my mummy

6) What do you think of Miley Cyrus?
dayumm man. i liked her in hannah montanna but she turns out to be a ass D:

7) Do you tend to think that you are always right?
tchyeah :D

8) Top Five Favorite Songs:
--> See it through my eyes by C.S Lewis band

--> Dark Blue by Jason whatshisname LOL

-->Guilty Innocence by taj munroe

--> driving myself insane by martin kember

....too much to name LOL

9) What was your favorite toy as a child?
DORAEMON! BAHAHAHA oh oh and... i liiked legos!

10) Have you thought more about your funeral, or your wedding?
nah. i'll jus go with the flow! :D

11) Dinosaurs or Unicorns?
unicorns!. omg i sound like such a gay.. bo LOL

12) Do you play the Sims 2?
psh NO!

13) The Wii or Xbox 360?
wheeeeeeeeee! i mean Wiiiiiiiii! how can you not love wii?!

14) Team Demi/Selena or Team Miley?
whats that?

(L)15) Do you know many Emily’s?
1. & it's not even her real name! LOL!

16) What do you think of the Jonas Brothers?
ahahahahahaha theyre gay 8]

17) Do you enjoy surveys?
hehe.. yeaaa. kills time!

18) What do you hear at the moment?
my shower dripping, my typing, and cars driving past and msn sound thingy.

19) Why do you think so many people love myspace?
because they love their space. AHAHA

20) What do you think of people who do illegal drugs?
theyre poor emo people who wanna do illegal stuff cos theyre emo.

21) Do you watch the Olympics?
yeah. dude.. ZOU KAI!! -SQUEALS-

22) What are your top five favorite stores?
smiggle, jayjays, cotton on, valleygirl, pork roll shop. :"D

23) What did you think of Panic at the Disco taking out the exclamation point in their name?
sif!

24) Have you ever been to Minnesota?
is that in australia?

25) What is the strangest thing you’ve ever seen on TV?
wipeout! LMAO THATS FUNNY

26) Do you watch infomercials when there is nothing on?
whats that?>!

27) Have you ever gone camping?
YEAH. FUN ASSSSS

28) What is your current job? If you are applying anywhere, where?
piano teaching and restaurant ..order picker uperer. LOL

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Wednesday, October 1, 2008

YAY a good day today :) I went to Jamie's house and we took lots of photos cos like we were muckin around and such. LOL overall i give it 7 thumbs up :D LOL

Hahahaaha she's sooo cute! LOL. i love you jam. anyways.. my throat hurts now from too much laughing today. We're such kids lOL we were SUPPPOSED to get some study done but like.. pfft study.. who needs studies? LOL yeah. As you can probably already imply, we didn't get much done AT ALL LOL ohwells. it's good to take a break :D

theres a good example of what we SHOULD be doin....
but

we never seem to be able to get it right. LOL

OHWELLS. IT was fun :D and thats wat matters.

bbl. i needa sleep

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Bad mood:

i hate how i always read our chat logs, emails, sms over and over again trying to look for some friggen hidden message in them. A double meaning. whatever

I HATE HOW DAMN FUNNY THEY ARE
I HATE HOW DAMN MUCH I ENJOY THEM
I HATE HOW I DREAMT ABOUT YOU LAST NIGHT
I hate how i find myself thinking about you
i hate how everything reminds me of you
i hate your voice
i hate it how i can't look up when you walk in the door
i hate how i hafta pretend i don't notice you
i hate it how i find myself looking for you in the room
i hate how i always notice you
i hate how i always wonder if your coming or not
i hate how you always gimme those one worded answers and i expect more
i hate how your so funny and make me laugh
i hate how you talk to other people so easily
i hate how perfectly flawless you seem.
i hate the fact i'm missing you, when I know i shouldnt
I hate the face that i'm thinking about you while you aren't
I hate it when you call me, and act like nothings wrong
I hate it when you talk to me about the shallowest things
I hate how good you look with a guitar
I hate how talented you are
I hate it that i love you. so damn much

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As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
there's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

Never knew I could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on
I wish I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give em the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye

It;s such a nice song but so depressing LOL, but it sounds so damn good :) really helps calm me down and put me to sleep.

First day of the real holidays! -takes a deep breath-
The air smells so free and pretty =] haha thanks rosa for the comment on my last blog. You sound so mature xD LOL like the REAL FIFTEEN year old you are. LOL i love you :)
Plans for this holidays:
- go out with the peoples.
- go over to someones house
- study for jap speaking test with larri
- go over to Jamie's house to study
-go play tennis/squash anyone?
-Study
-STUDY
-read some good books
-teevee
-computer
-watch some movies
- watch some dramas
-go to the library
-shopping:)

ehh.. I think that;s it. LOL msg me if you guys wanna do anything :D There's really not much to say atm, so i'll come back to you guys latahz :] I miss you already and it's only the first day! i'm so gonna die without seeing yous! LOL come o ver my place! :)

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Friday, September 26, 2008

MMmm I'm in a very bored and annoyed mood today. :s LOL so i'll probably write something not so happy? LOL
Sometimes I think I miss you. But then again, I'm wrong
I'm fine without you. Sure, it hurts that it feels like i've lost a friend but the thing is, it wasn't my fault at all. You are the one to stop talking. You are the one who left and i'm sick of being the one who always tries and find my way back next to you cos it's like you'd always just walk faster. The distance between us is stretching too far, it's almost impossible to keep up with you now. Who knows what's on your mind. Who knows what you're thinking about nowadays. seriously, I dont really care no more. We've drifted and I gotta learn to accept the fact.
I miss your warm hugs at times, and hearing your voice all the time, or your sms messages and just the sound of your laughter. But hey, if they're already taken by someone else, i'll accept it. We all gotta let go and move on but it seems really really hard sometimes. Like right now. I know I shouldnt miss you, but it annoys me that I do. Why should i? You don't care about me. Well it doesnt seem like it. so why should i? There are more people out there, who might be better than you, and will make a better friend than you. But truthfully, I don't think there will be anyone that will be able to replace you in my memories. The times we've spent together was quite a lot... and they were indeed enjoyable, but as time goes on things change. we change. and somewhere along the line we came apart.
I remember I wrote a poem to a friend of mine tellin her how much i missed our friendship, and it made her cry. The poem did its work there. But I don't think a poem would ever bring you back to me. You're different. And I bet you don't even miss me. Do i ever come up in your mind? LOok, when we see each other, you don't even say hi to me. It's like we're two different people, from two entirely differnet worlds. Strangers.
I sometimes wish that we could somehow go back in time and relive all the funny moments together and like try our best to prevent our split, but why think of the impossible? it's impossible. It seems like youre happy now. Yeah.
So I hope all will go well for you. Whatever youre up to these days. and if maybe one day you read this and decide that you miss me and the friendship we had, then we can start over again.
"A ring is round and never ends that's how long i'll be your friend" LOL whatever. it doesnt always work man.
It's funny how after all this time, I still love you. When i'm bored, I re-read our msgs, chat logs and emails, and i laugh. They're hilarious i swear. LOL Guess it goes to show how much I really do miss you huh? But i'll keep denying it to myself and maybe one day i really WON'T miss you.

Labels: friends, missing you, rage

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Monday, September 22, 2008

pains and what nots

It's funny how much a guy can change for a girl. It's funny how they can change from a perfectly nice guy to an ass for the sake of one girl. It's weird how when you're away from her, you're an entire different person. Someone who we all like more, but when the topic of her comes out, you become overprotective. You'd strike like a blind cat.

Have you ever realised how many girls you'd hurt because of her. How you left so many friends to be with her? Boy you got your priorities wrong. Girl over friend? nah uh man. That ain't the way. Sometimes I feel like I really need to slap some sense into yah. But hey, who am I to boss you around? You are you. YOU live your life. There's nothing I can do to change you except maybe talk to you. But the thing is, am i WILLING to talk to you, when you're such an ass? sorry mate. No can do. so it's either her or your friends take it or leave it.

Remember the times we had? all the GREAT FUN times we had that seem oh-so-distant now? The time when she never came up in your head, the time when we could talk about anything in the world together and laugh along to it? Along comes her, and now we never talk. You're never there. NEVER.
I used to miss you. that's right. i USED to. and everytime i talked to you, it'd be a hasty reply of "sorry". Sorry is only meant to be used when you mean it pal. Don't say it if you dont mean it. As time went on, i stopped thinking of our moments together. Well, not really, they still pop up sometimes =\ but oh wells, the point i'm making, is that I stopped missing you. I stopped wanting to talk to you. If you didn't wanna talk to me, that wasn't my problem. Cos to put it bluntly, I don't care. Why should I care about you when you dont? pointless.

Then came the day when you compforted me at my hour of need. It's been a million years since we last talked, or so it seems, and then you walk back into my vision. You lent me your shoulder as i cried, and I realised how much I missed you. You hugged me and told me to cheer up. and i realised how much i missed talking to you and hearing your voice. You a dmit to me that we havent talkked in a while, and it was YOUR fault. you apologize only, the next day your'e back to her.

We're back to where we started. Dude, what's the point in this friendship? One where you just keep walking in and out. Cutting and healing me. Givin me hope and then burning them

This kind of friendship, i don't need. I'm better off without it. And even if it's not for me, stop hurting my friends. I know you can do better than that.

Labels: friends, rage

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ehh so bored. Havent blogged in like.. 12 days. LOL
ohwells I guess i havent been in the mood. Lotsa family problemos going on.
Can't wait til holidays to start studying. and gotta go out or i'll go nuts LOl

I can't stand summer. So hot and sticky and everyone stinks. LOL (im kidding! relax!)
The flies are gonna be backk.. BACK i say.
I should probably stop procrastinating. Too much time wasted LOL.
I'll blog when i'm in abetter mood.
til then, ;)
tatass

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